where to begin?

i'm on the west coast now, living in platt west, facing north, toward mount hood.... cardinal directions- who needs em! i kind of feel like i'm in a lot of places. or maybe i wish i could be in more places than i am. since the phone and internet are down in my room, i've been super restricted on when and how i can get in touch with people i love! which means people i love certainly can't get in touch with ME very easily. that makes me sad a lot, for both reasons-- i want to talk to people i love, and i want them to be able to talk to me! so i'm now on the search for a new cell phone company, sprint pcs-- you're letting me down on palatine hill.

i keep being amazed at how cool it is to be in college. how there are atleast 10 awesome people to hang out with at any given moment that are within walking distance, and lots of ways to have fun from there. some things to take advantage of at school -- open swim on weeknights, the plattaeu (dance parties?), and the city!

i still need time to wind down, the rainy weather has been fitting. yesterday i had a very relaxing day, i like when studying is sort of progressive and not crammed into 2 hours of stress. so i'm learning all my music theory... slowly but surely, flashcard after flashcard.

i miss people a lot right now. what to do...

i had a dream the other night that i died from a tornado that was right behind the car, it picked us up (my brother and 2 friends.. can't remember who in the backseat). i knew we were probably going to die in the dream, and so i screamed the last words "i love you guys!" and then crash... and then i blurrily woke up to quiet rummaging from people in the hall, and tried to figure out what would happen next in that dream, or if i could re-dream it and somehow survive. that doesn't ever work though (replaying dreams differently). sort of like life doesn't work like that. (oh metaphors...)

i guess if i were to die right now that would be my last words- I LOVE YOU GUYS! that's the most wisdom i have to share, that's where i'm at in my college-student life... learning a lot of things in class, but all that ever seems to stick is the love. it's an amazing feat, to love... i'll always have a lot to learn when it comes to loving. what was the name of my dads first album.. learning how to love? something like that...

oooh, death cab for cutie transatlantacism cd just started playing in the coffee shop i'm in. this cd is alll about missing people! i think i'm going to try to find a phone, get connected, and then get some work done.

in communcation class our professor was saying how the english language is very "action" oriented. like... the fact that our sentences need verbs in order to be sentences, in order to speak you have to be using an ACTION. we've always got to be dooing something. just knowing that not ever culture is like that intrigues me. what is left outside of all the verbs? there's lots... i like my school a lot. adios personas,

jodi