resolutions

i went to youth group today and some people were asking what resolutions people were making... i kind of laughed because when i woke up on saturday i said maybe i'll go running because its nice out and its new years. haha and i didnt run! but its not really sad that i havent made any real resolutions for new years. the way i see it.. i'm constantly evaluating this process of life i'm a part of.

lots of people kind of look back on the year and look at all of the ways they are horrible people. how they weigh 10 pounds more than they want to weigh, how they stopped going to the gym, how some friendships have slipped away, how they havent given to any charity's or done much to help out other people... basically a big list of things that make us feel bad about ourselves, but then hopeful because its this new year and we can leave the past behind.

all that is true about leaving the past behind and having the ability to do some amazing things this year. but i guess i'm just not a planner. to have a whole year to map out is a little daunting and definitely unrealistic. basically we celebrate new years at midnight, but whats the difference between december 31 and jan 1? of jan 3rd and jan 4th? its a change of an hour.. of a day. we got everyday to do the stuff we want to. every day to evaluate and leave things behind.

like 2 years ago i wrote a song called everyday on new years eve. chorus is somethin like:


everyday theres something new, theres something new waiting for you
and when you go, its then you'll know, the pain will bring you through
the change will bring you through to me.



i mean, it sounds a little cliche, but i have that problem... of having a lot to say an not enough original ways of saying it.

didnt mean to diss new years resolutions i just mean to say life is a lot fuller if we act on those hopes day to day. for me life is a lot fuller that way.


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