such great heights

the roof of ahs is a good place to be with people you love on the brink of something new. i feel like almost saying i took advantage of having such great people in my life now that i'm leaving, but really... i didn't, everydays a new day that i tell people i love that i love them, i'm reminded over and over how great my friendships are, they didn't really just come and go or just happen, it was an intentional union of great people coming together to encourage one another and laugh and cry and play music with and all that great stuff.

it's funny, seems like my natural instinct (and others i've talked with) to feel emotional/worried/overwhelmed, because no matter how much stuff is taken care of, the future seems so ambiguous. i forgot how hard it is to endure change. i'm feelin for rach having 2 school changes coming up. the thing is, i know every one of my friends is going to be alright. the type of ppl my friends are... are not ones to give up on a dream or a goal, and no matter what happens, there's going to be some path waiting to be taken that each of us will stumble upon and make our own.

rach and i were talking... it's really just about having faith. so in the words of my 5th grade PG county self-- keep the faith alive! worrying is only gonna get us so far and so "prepared" and eventually it's going to come down to figuring out how to deal, how to live knowing that everything is happening for a reason and will turn out how it should with our willingness to participate in the decisions to come using our hearts.

it's always nice to have someone pray for you, i guess not every average person experiences such a thing, but growing up in the church i guess it's sort of enevitable that someone somewhere is praying for me. on sunday i had the privelege of hearing the prayer of a dear friend of mine with her motherly hand on my shoulder. she was thanking god for the conversations we'd had and encouragement i'd provided, and praying that the transition be an enjoyable one with interesting people and good things to do... i dont' remember it all, but it was very warming. and lots of other people spouted the phrase "i'll be praying for you." which i like and appreciate greatly, it's a way of saying that someone believes in me and is hoping for good things in their thoughts (and prayers).

i've been a little uh.. silent when it comes to talking to god through prayer, i'm thinking.. god hears all the talk going on already, what's he need to be specially informed? so i feel like a prayer sponge, just getting the most out of other ppls prayers about me or for me and, not contributing much back into the prayer realm of belief. i would like to pray though, or ask life to be sure to keep my friends in their awesomest condition along with myself as we all endure so many changes. ultimately its on us, but it's hard to plan ahead when everything is so blank and empty until we get there and experience it. we have to be a part of it to know anything about it (college), and so i'm asking that college open its arms to us crazy girls and guys from howard county just trying to live a good life a potentially difficult life thats bursting with LIFE. and i do believe its going to work out.


to get to the top of the world, you have to climb.


:)