non fiction and truman capote

i just saw Capote today... really great movie, i recommend it. supposedly truman capote introduced the non-fiction novel with his novel "in cold blood" written about a murder that took place in kansas. capote researched how the town was affected and befriended the criminals who committed the crime, and ended up with such a compelling story because of the truth he was able to uncover in his conversations with the criminals.

the thing is... like non-fiction, or real life, or movies based on real life-- humans aren't ALL hero, they fall short, they're not perfect. like capote could've worked harder to keep his friends from facing the death sentence, but he sort of gives up on them.

i just felt so affected by this movie, because there's always so much we "could've done" in life. and there are ways to verbally justify yourself and say... i did all i could, but thats rarely ever the case. sometimes we give up, or fall short of whatever "hero" we hope ourselves to be. and those sorts of decisions can result in letting other ppl down.. which sucks! letting ppl you love down.

none of us are heros really. sure, sometimes we are for a certain cause in a certain time and place. but in the span of life, we're not one big building happy ending of some secure above-average lifestyle. we're a great mix of a lot of things. pain is one affect of many that results from the crimes and the deeds. true stories really pull those emotions right out, because everyone can relate, even to the most unsuspecting ppl, the most different ppl, the most condemned ppl. so i think there's got to be a way to abdicate that pain. maybe its forgiveness of sins, maybe its crying, maybe its recreating and renewing and taking new directions in life.